| Why is it over? |
[28 Aug 2007|05:04pm] |
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I fell in love with you. I hate seeing you with her. She moved to NJ. You know it wont work, i know you and i know you know. I feel bad by saying all this because it makes me happy to see you happy and i know you love her, which hurts more. I wish you loved me. Im so jealous. I know it would have worked, im not giving up, i cant. I didnt know you didnt want me to take that, if i knew it would come to this, i wouldnt have done them at all.
This song always reminds me of you:
"My tears run down like razorblades and no, I'm not the one to blame: it's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say come out and now we are all ashamed. And there is no sense in playing games, when you done all you can do.
But now it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it's over,
It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back, but it's over.
I lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right. I cry, I cry. I'm
Shaking from the pain that's in my head. I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away
The life that I led. But I won't let it die. But I won't let it die.
But it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it's over,
It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back.
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever. You're breaking
My, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together. We could be over
And over, we could be forever.
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever. You're breaking
My, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together. We could be over
And over, we could be forever.
It's not over. It's not over, it's never over, unless you let it take you, it's not over,
It's not over, it's not over, unless you it break you. It's not over."
Then there is Greg, Im falling for him because im getting over Ryan. But Greg is moving to Sue St. Marie for college so i cant fall for him. Then Justin, jeez, hes moving to Florida. Everyone i like is or has left me. I hate love, but I love it.
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| love is real, real is love... |
[14 Aug 2007|08:58pm] |
I love how you say that you didnt want a girlfriend, that was hmmm...only about a week or so before you got together with her.
damn, thanks for fucking me over.
you said you wouldnt, that was another lie you told.
advice to anyone: dont get mixed up in guys right now, they will just fuck you over. they may say they wont, but it happens. trust me, i've had plenty of expierence.
Even though I've had expierence, i still havent learned.
p.s.you're such an ass.
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| Is this my everest? |
[29 Jul 2007|05:16pm] |
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I love how I will put everything into liking someone, yet they barely put anything.
I have such trouble with relationships, yet i dont.
It's so weird.
Im confused.
lost.
numb.
I just dont know what to do anymore and I hate not knowing.
what do i do?
what do i do?
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| I'm gonna tear your ass up like we just got married... |
[07 May 2007|02:45pm] |
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so i still am in love with you like crazy.
i know you will never read this.
i know i will never tell you untill you move to florida or where ever you are going to move to.
but even though you hurt me bad, i am still in love with you.
i dont understand it.
i was thinking about it and you are my first love, so i think thats why it has been so hard to get over you.
but i think once you move, i will be better because i wont have a chance of seeing you.
but it's killing me, bad.
i need to tell you though.
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| Cute without the E |
[23 Apr 2007|05:15pm] |
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I just read these lyrics, they mean a lot to me.
they kind of explain some past relationships.
I think its my new fav!
Your lipstick, his collar.. don't bother Angel
I know exactly what goes on
When everything you'll get is
everything that you've wanted, princess
(well which would you prefer)
My finger on the trigger, or
(me face down, down across your floor)
Me face down, down across your floor
(me face down, down across your floor)
Well just so long as this thing's loaded
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
let's go...
Don't bother trying to explain Angel
I know exactly what goes on when you're on and
How about I'm outside of your window
(how about I'm outside of your window)
Watchin him keep the details covered
You're such a sucker (you're such a sucker)
for a sweet talker, yeah
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
(the only thing that I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back)
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I wil never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know...
Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?
Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?
And all of this was all your fault
And all of this
(I stay jealous)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
(she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
(she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life!
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| oily marks appear on walls. |
[17 Apr 2007|10:12pm] |
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I dont understand.
I seriously hurt more now.
I think its because he is talking to her and she is saying all these things about memories with him.
What will really piss me off is if they get back together because he talked about her and everything and never seemed happy with her.
and she didnt treat him good.
I hate love at times and the heartbreaks that follow.
Life is just not being how i want it.
ugh...im so sick of broken hearts and not knowing what I want.
I know what i want but if i reach for it, people will probably hate me for my decision.
but he was the only one that i believe i was trully happy with and he was my first love.
I hate this.
I wish i could fall asleep untill the pain is gone.
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| now the boys boys oh they're wearing girls' clothes... |
[16 Apr 2007|09:03pm] |
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I think I am done with Love for awhile.
It's too complicated and always ends up breaking a heart.
I dont know what to do, I am still in love with you.
:))
"now the boys boys oh they're wearing girls' clothes and nobody nobody knows just where they go and the girls girls in their makeup and curls trying to see see and be scene there's a line in the sand and i'm not sure about the side where i stand one thing's certain this sandbox is small if you don't say something nice you can't say anything anything at all its fun to pretend but you're not a kid anymore what am i doing trying to be here with you you don't say nothing new you don't say anything anything anything that's true"
-The Hard Lessons.
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| That I fell into your eyes At first sight |
[06 Mar 2007|08:40pm] |
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you are my miracle.
:))
Lasting Impressions-
"I'll wait 'til the clock strikes a nerve to spend some time with you
I can't stand to depend on the shadow I cast alone when we should
For the sake of making a statement
Let's make our presence known
Let's show them what were made of
We'll show up in our outfits we planned ahead
To meet the qualifications for a special occasion
Today is your day today is our day
Making up for lost time
Making a scene oh yeah
You've made a lasting impression
And if it doesn't feel right
Then I just can't go wrong
I've been sleeping with the lights on
So if I wake in the night
Your picture is clearly in sight
So let's meet at the mouth for a kiss
That's been so long overdue
No thanks to the two thousands of miles
And the touring we always do
(It makes me miss you more)
You've made a lasting impression
And if it doesn't feel right
Then I just can't go wrong
I've been sleeping with the lights on
So if I wake in the night
Your picture is clearly in sight
I could explode
Cuz you just never, you never know
It would suit the moment perfectly
You've made a lasting impression
And if it doesn't feel right
Then I just can't go wrong
I've been sleeping with the lights on
So if I wake in the night
Your picture is clearly in sight
You've made a lasting impression
And if it doesn't feel right
Then I just can't go wrong
I've been sleeping with the lights on
So if I wake in the night
Your picture is clearly in sight
We can't go wrong...
We can't go wrong..."
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| happiness. |
[04 Mar 2007|11:04am] |
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UBER happy. |
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I am amazed at how i fell for you.
you make me so happy.
this love we have came out of the blue, it was weird.
i think now i just know everything happens for a reason and there is no stopping it.
i never thought i would be over this other guy but you, my baby, have made me get over him and showed me that there are better people and that he is just a spec in my life that means nothing now..
you, my baby, are what makes me get up in the morning.
you are just so amazing and i couldn't ask for better.
we are so alike but yet so different.
i love you.
on the other hand, i have some fuckin' amazing friends too.
this has been the best couple of months ever!
seriously, i love all my friends, every single one of them:
the SBPC: Alex, Tiffany, Kristen, Megan, Brian, Adam, Nate, Roby.
then my other friends that are amazing too: Brittany, Sabrina, Bdro, JAYNE!, Andrea, Cameron, everyone else.
I love hanging out with SBPC. seriously, we are the fuckin' life of the party.
I am just soooo happy now, it's unexplainable.
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| i WILL forget, someday. |
[30 Jan 2007|07:16pm] |
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This song pracitcally explains it all.
seriously no joke.
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?
Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
Now girl(boy), I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?
Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
Don't want to think about it (no)
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?
Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
[Comes Around interlude:]
Let me paint this picture for you, baby
You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes
You cheated girl(boy)
My heart bleeds girl(boy)
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl(boy) you got what you deserved
And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right
But girl(boy) I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because
(What goes around comes back around)
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| Oh, it's what you do to me. |
[28 Jan 2007|08:55pm] |
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Plain White T's |
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Today my mom said "It wouldn't be to bad if you and Will got back together."
It hurts me even more when i hear things like this, or when i hear anything about his and I relationship.
then he just wants it to seem that it never happend or something.
There will never be a day where i dont think about what we had or what we could be having right now.
I know i shouldn't want to get back with him but i can't help it and i want to.
I miss the feeling he gave me, the way he made me smile, the sex. haha.
that is true.
everything about him was amazing to me.
I dont understand why i am still in love with him.
there was so much hurt that he gave me but yet so so so much love.
He could treat me so wonderful and all the time he did except when he lied.
I know he is bad for what he did but im in love with him still i think.
I seriously almost just hate myself for it because i know i shouldnt want to but i do.
It hurts more when i see him, when i talk to him, when other people talk about him, when he wants me to hook him up with one of my friends.
I pretend its ok but deep down it feels like my heart is just getting broken all over again.
I look at pictures of me and him kissing and i miss that so much.
I miss having the biggest smile when ever i saw him.
I miss the times at atlas, times at parties, times together.
EVERYTHING.
I miss it all.
I need someone who can make me feel the same. come to me, fix me.
"Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side..."
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| wooow! |
[06 Jan 2007|02:13pm] |
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| I am fuckin' baked. |
[27 Dec 2006|11:48pm] |
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ya know what i love?
fuckin' chronic.
ya you heard me.
I love weed.
:))
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| funny ass song! |
[29 Nov 2006|02:35am] |
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My Dick-Mickey Avalon |
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My Dick
My dick cost a late night fee
Your dick got the HIV
My dick plays on the double feature screen
Your dick went straight to DVD
My dick bigger than a bridge
Your dick look like a little kids
My dick large like the chargers (the whole team)
Your shit look like you fourteen
My dick locked in a cage (right)
Your dick suffer from stage fright
My dick so hot its stolen
Your dick look like Gary Coleman
My dick pink and big
Your dick stinks like shit
My dick got a caesar doo,
Your dick needs a tweezer dude
My dick is like supersize
Your dick look like two fries
My dick more mass than the Earth
Your dick half staff (it needs work)
My dick been there done that
Your dick sits there with dunce cap
My dick, V.I.P.
Your shit needs I.D.
[Repeat 2x]
It's time that we let the world know
Dude, you gotta let your girl go
D.S. is the best in the business
P.s. we got dicks like Jesus
My dick need no introduction
Your dick don't even function
My dick served a whole lunch-in
Your dick, it look like a munchkin
My dick size of a pumpkin
Your dick look like Macauley Culkin
My dick good good lovin'
Your dick good for nothin'
My dick bench pressed 350
Your dick couldn’t shotlift at thrifty
My dick pretty damn skimpy
Your dick hungry as a hippy
My dick don't fit down the chimney
Your dick is like a kid from the Philippines
My dick is like an M16
Your dick, broken vending machine
My dick parts the seas
Your dick farts and quiefs
My dick rumble in the jungle
Your dick got touched by your uncle
My dick goes to yoga
Your dick fruit roll up
My dick grade a beef
Your dick made a geek
My dick sick and dangerous
Your dick quick and painless
My dick 'nuff said.
Your dick loves sweat
[Repeat 2x]
It's time that we let the world know
Dude, you gotta let your girl go
D.S. is the best in the business
P.s. we got dicks like Jesus
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| omg...your amazing! |
[17 Nov 2006|04:02am] |
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happy like no other! |
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"Ok i just saw you about an hour ago and since, I haven't stopped thinking about you, I want you to know this cause i think you like me too. I know I should have just asked you out there and then but since I can't go back in time and since I care about you so,
I need to ask you a question and it comes from my heart.
And i didn't want to do this over the computer but everytime you leave me, without me, I feel I lose you more. I just can't stand the feeling when you walk out the door, and so I ask you if you'll go out with me?
Until you feel you can answer this question to your heart's desire, I will patiently wait because you really do mean that much to me!'
'p.s. I know it wasn't the best poem but I tried, and since I know you love poetry, I thought this seemed the best way :)"
this was written by Justin asking me out!!! I love it!!! i think it is one of the cutest things anyone has every done to ask me out. I love it so much because he tried his hardest to write a poem for me because he knows how much i love poetry.
im so happy!!!
I love it!!
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[14 Nov 2006|01:38am] |
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drunk in love. |
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omg. i like you so much.
and its working out.
we can be together.
im so happy.
aghhhh!!!
:)XaMILLION!
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| yeahhh boiii. |
[12 Nov 2006|05:03am] |
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I want you terribly.
its eating away at me and I want to get it out, but then there is someone in the way, someone i dont want to hurt or loose as a friend.
i can see myself with you, but i dont want to be with you now because i want to live my life and i think you might pull me down and ill probably just end up doing what I always do.
So I want to be with someone else to just play the field a little, ya know?
hope you understand when it finally comes to the point where I have go to tell you.
hope you take it well.
much love.
:)
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| Just Listen. |
[10 Nov 2006|03:41am] |
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Don't hold me close.
Don't even talk.
Just listen to what I have to say.
You hurt the one you said you loved.
You hurt the one you said you cared for.
Were these all lies just so you would win me over?
I would be able to get through this.
but all you do is ignore me,
make me choke up and not say how I feel.
I have so much to say but it all doesnt come out at once.
it comes to my mind,
then leaves my mouth
to come out in words that make no sense.
Please stay still for a minute
so I can tell you all about how I feel.
Just listen to these words that may take awhile...
-Allie Schmier.
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